Dirty Bit

I'm ready to change and i'm doing it slowly. I know this is my punishment for being too cold hearted before. I know it was my fault. It's talking back to me without mercy. And I will walk alone till the very end which no one would understand. If there's only one person who would take my hand and show me the way. Do I feel lonely? Do I really need a man? Or do I really need it. I should have known this time would come. But I never think about it before. I was too young to understand and was too ego to learn...Am I too desperate? I don't think I am. I want my life to be so peaceful like listening to music, live my life like a TV commercial...You wouldn't understand cause you are not me,and i am not you....this is true.